lying in bed body shaking gently with only a teddy bear to wipe away your tears. the crying fills your eyes, nose, throat. silent suppression so no one will hear. as long as you keep thinking why did i say those things? act that way? the shaking continues. to escape you must not think. blank […]
Down the Rabbit Hole
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Monthly Archives May 2003
Sunburn etc. (oh, the creativity abounds)
I don’t know why but I don’t really enjoy amusement parks that much. I’d rather read. Or better yet, sleep! Mmm, sleep. The word has become one of those high ideals to be viewed with awe and resignation, for it will never be attained. Sunburt shoulders, by the way. Oh well. Maybe it’ll fade sort […]
Pattern Recognition
Eating Grapenuts, which I haven’t done for a while, and enjoying this spiffy i-book that my stepmother borrowed from her work. Had fun with the radio stations on i-tunes, but it would have been more fun if there were mp3s. Today I am going to be a bridesmaid at the wedding of a former student […]
The pain of post-AP-ness
I don’t post terribly often, do I? I’m enjoying reading and not being outside in the sun (although it isn’t unbearably hot) but I seem to have a lot going on this weekend that I don’t know much about. Frankly, I should go and be productive. What I actually need, is to find out my […]
Untitled
1. Saw the Matrix Reloaded. Cool, I guess, but lacking finesse. Don’t hurt me. 2. Senior ball tonight…lots of getting ready to do at some point. Many things to consider. Looking forward to it, though 3. Service paper due Monday. AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH. So the moral of the story is, I should write at least two pages […]
One, two, buckle my shoe
Blank mind. Blank. Oh yes, a personal narrative to write. How does one get rid of bad habits? I seem to have such trouble. I wrote an Ode to Star Testing today in econ because I needed an English journal entry for the week of April 21. Heh. My new hobby is setting bedtime goals […]
Reality check
So for a while I thought that things really had changed and I really got to be a second semester senior, then I realized it was just a respite. So I’m back at the grind in my usual state of not-getting-enough-done-ness with an econ paper due in a week, a chem AP in two days, […]
Interlude
Orson Card rocks my world. Every time I touch one of his Ender or Bean books I realize that his books are more engrossing and interesting and entertaining to read and reread than just about any others I can think of. Why? I’ve read other good books, but I know a book has really got […]
AP joys
I thought it was ironic that in the math AP part “A” today it said “AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA” across of the top of each page. I added “h!” because I was amused. Ironic, I say, because it didn’t make me want to scream or cry. In fact, it was positively fun. I love math. Not econ, though. […]
Expression of gratitude
I just want to thank all of my family and friends for helping make my birthday this year one of the best I can remember. I suppose it also helped that it was a late day and pajama day and I had very little homework, but mostly what made my day was that my friends […]