Down the Rabbit Hole

Yeah, so I’m writing this because I’m lonely and frustrated. Sure I can talk to some of my friends online but I’m feeling at odds with Paul. I feel upset but then I don’t like feeling like I am blaming another person for the way I’m feeling, so I turn it on myself. Clever, I know. It is, as I told , and Nick, and other people who would listen, that horrible fear that you enjoy spending time with someone more than they enjoy spending time with you. I don’t like worrying that I’m taken for granted, or whatever. Of course, the easy solution is to not think so much. Too much, really. I definitely overthink. Umm…maybe more later