Wants

Sometimes I feel as though I just can’t balance everything. I am tired of feeling so fragile; why can’t I be stronger? It is that age old feeling of not being able to make everyone (including myself) happy. I want to respect and support my mother and abide by her wishes; I want to be a good friend and not be an inconvenience to anyone; I want to be a good hostess; I want to be there for my sister without pressuring her to talk to me; I want to get my work done and get enough sleep; I want to put in time and effort for my work at the recycling center; I want things to be comfortable and friendly between me and my roomate without me having to compromise my own personal agenda and standards. Even when I put aside half of these things I feel as though I can barely hold together the rest. I still miss David more than I like to admit, and I’m scared and worried for my grandmother and my family. Perhaps it is just emotional strain that is making me feel so easily pushed over the edge.

Comments 3

  1. entropicdragon wrote:

    Gah, don’t be stressed.

    Yeah, like telling you not to be stressed makes it go away.
    I mean, I guess you just have to deal with it, however possible that is.

    …I’m sorry, this isn’t coming across as especially supportive. But I *do* care. And, I mean, it won’t *kill* you right? If things come unbalanced and fall over and make a mess? Stuff is less breakable than you think, I think.

    …but really, you *will* survive, and I won’t tell you to stop worrying ’cause that never works.

    Posted 22 Feb 2005 at 10:06
  2. prismakaos wrote:

    *hugs* come hang out with me! we can be stressed together!

    Posted 22 Feb 2005 at 11:16
  3. semer wrote:

    Yeah, if you want to talk or hang out, let me know and I will make the lengthy trek across the road. Juuuuust for you, Rowyn. :)

    Feel better; you can get through it.

    Posted 22 Feb 2005 at 12:29

Post a Comment

Your email is never published nor shared. Required fields are marked *