Friday December 5, 2003

Upsaid is down so I am resorting to Xanga to waste my time.  I am almost done with my chemistry lab report, which is amazing for me because it isn’t even 10 PM yet.  I do, however, still have a problem set to do.  Every sliver lining has its cloud, right? ;-)  Brief thoughts beyond school work are just revisitations of earlier themes: how incredibly lucky I am, how I feel like a horrible person (meaning I don’t like the thoughts I think, and I have bad work ethic, and I am not motivated/dedicated enough, and I am not grateful enough for what I have, and I am not a good enough friend, etc), and ….well, come to think of it that’s all I can think of at the moment.  Sometimes when I think or remember things I wish I could take a big felt tipped pen and black it all out.  Erase it.  Hide it.  Make it never have existed.  Sadly, things don’t work this way, so I can only try to repent and reform, so to speak.  Anyway, back to work I go.  One more week…just one more…

Comments 2

  1. spamchang wrote:

    w00t!  do work!

    it’s the bad times that make us who we are inside.  the gold melts before it is shaped.

    Posted 05 Dec 2003 at 01:03
  2. Prismakaos wrote:

    good god.  you should come play pool with us.

    Posted 05 Dec 2003 at 05:38

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